When moving away, at first I fought so hard to try and keep in touch with everyone at home, even those I didn't really speak to very often, but then it turns out that no matter how hard you try, you need to realise those who keep missing your calls and facetime's, they're not going to call you back. They are going to wait for you to make the effort because in reality, they don't care enough to do it themselves.
The one thing that really gets me are the one's who are supposed to be the closest people to you but in fact they don't bother with you unless you bother with them. I've actually only had this though in my head a few weeks but I thought I would put it too the test. For the past few weeks I have called, messaged and facetimed no one, I have made no effort in hope that the ones I thought I cared about would actually make the first move for one. It was hardly surprising to see that the total calls and messages from these specific people came to a huge... zero.
I'm going back home to Wales this weekend and I've decided that I am going to use my limited time with the people I think care enough about me. I am fed up of the time wasters who are happy enough to have the funny 'let's go have a laugh' Jess and the 'OMG you're so funny drunk. let's go out' when they are home and have no one else. No... not happening any more.
Focusing on my family and friends who actually care is my main goal for the next three weeks. I'll let you know how that goes.
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